Tuesday, August 31, 2010

day20-somone who broke my heart the hardest

Dear person,

Although I could say it was just you, and say all this hateful stuff about you I could say thank you. Because it could've not happened any later or any worse, it just went to show that I could love a little. And please believe it wasn't just you, its happened after you because some girls are confused and like to play games, I admit i played them to. But in the end, I put pride first, and acted like I didn't care, Im ridiculous sometimes. However, I just know theres a girl waaay better than yous.



Monday, August 30, 2010

day 19- someone who pester my mind

Dear person,

You give me headaches. And why exactly are you there? I think its funny how these things turn out

Day18- The person i wish i could be

Dear Person,

I would want to know everything before it happened. I wish that I never got myself into situations because I care toooo much. I wish I could let things roll of my shoulders (its hard sometimes), I wish I got big tips because I smiled nice. I wish people didn't have to tell me everything, I wish i could buy people i love whatever they wanted. I wish I could say how i really feel, instead of acting like certain people don't mean shit, or their feelings for that matter. I wish i could write terrifically, that people would have eyegasms every time they read my stuff or saw my photos. I wish I could stop pretending, but i also wish i could pretend. (Maybe things will be easier then). I wish I spent enough time with everybody. I wish I could get paid for my thoughts, I wish i could not get distracted easily. I wish I could finish a book with one day, I wish I knew all the answers. I wish i could be settled. I wish i didnt think as much.

day17-someone from my childhood

Dear Marcus,

For the record i miss you and how innocent you were. I miss the fact that you had a heart of gold, and that you saw everything as a young naive boy with big tree dreams and broad horizons. Who sought for truth, and no cusswords came out. IT was taboo at the the time. I wish i could stay there for ever, and looking back on how i would do things differently. But when you get this older, you'll realize you are what you want to become. ANd that everything DOES happen for a reason, its just not some passive-aggressive saying towards life.

BTW, i hate when people don't reply back

Friday, August 27, 2010

day16-the person in another state

Dear people,

Hopefully you know that being in another state. We are absent alot from each others lives, but love survives here. Its a blast to still speak to you guys on the phone, Im so glad to have people like yous in my life. YOU have been the most supportive and helpful, Im sorry im not the best grandson. I do need to call you more.

day15-the person i miss

Dear beloved,

To say i miss you would be an understatement, we always made a promise to say I would keep in touch. However we don't always keep up on that, however I do miss hearing your life stories. I wish that everything you deserve comes your way, even if it mean a better man for you. I miss your laugh

4 the record

I do hope you get what you got coming to you, its not too long before we all do.
the sad part is, everyone is waiting on this.
We are just the audience, and you are just the disaster.


Wednesday, August 25, 2010

day14-someone i drifted from

dear someone,

I guess things happen, eventually theres some reason why drifted either by default. At one point, we were equally yoked but it seems that one is fine where they are at while the other is trying to move forward. To be honest I think you gave up, you want to stay where you are. And eventually things will get old, I can't lie, for now things do seem FUN. At this point though, sometimes, I could care less...to call yourself a good friend, doesn't always amount.
Its just not easy to leave your neighboring door, well not unless it burns down.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

day 13- the person who i wished forgave me

Dear person,

I wish that every thought, and vengeful vision, every cussword, pretty much everything that is sinful. That you forgive me, sometimes its just my fleshly body, it gets the best of me.
But im trying, and for every merciful forgiveness you granted me instead of convicting me to hell, I am forever that more grateful.

Monday, August 23, 2010

day12-the person i hate the most

Dear person,

For the record, was it really all worth your 'best intentions"?
Did you really think that not telling someone something is
still going to save from hurting someones feelings?
You might of had the best intentions,
but in the end, you fucked up.
In the end, every truth unwraps it self,
and every thread that pulls on keeping the light out
And eventually things are cut short,
and relationships, and hearts, and memories
are shattered, to cut hearts out and reflect bloody lies.
In the end,
you were the one hurt.
And i laughed as you stumbled back,
but nowadays, theres no more hate
in fact i appreciate your 'sacrifice'
its because of it, that i could never be played a fool,
and that i have in fact learned to forgive.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Every now and again, i get that feeling.

day11-a deceased person

Well being that you are deceased I would ask you how is it?
How were things back then & do you like it now?
hmm..how about jimi hendrix

day10-the person i dont talk to as much as i wish

Dear person,

Although I am a person of believing fate, we have found each other again.
ANd yet again, we have lost each other, maybe its not time yet, or maybe its just the fact that we'll swivel down our ways back into each others lives.
In the mean time, we could have all these experiences to tell each other
when we finally talk.

Friday, August 20, 2010

Day9-The person i wish i could meet

I sometimes wish i could meet god,
of course i would ask him usual questions.
But i would like to hang out with him and crack jokes,
i'd think it would be fun.

Day8-the favorite internet friend

(Meaning person to speak to on facebook?)

Well i love speaking to ginelle because we go back a while and we are also penpals

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

day7-the exlover/girlfriend/crush

for one thing,
your selfish. You live in your own set of rules and expect every to bow to what you want, but you forgot who i was. You expected me to be one of those boys who followed on the linger of your perfume, the things is because of greed,
your lust for people to fall at your feet,
i turned away,
which is why im more than a fortune to you.
I could cost you your life.
YOU can never have your cake and eat it.
Im not one of those stupid little boys who are drunk of the bottle called love, but too blind to see the XXX's in small font. BOys who fall asleep on their hearts to realize that while they are dumb enough to stare at you and realize all the games you play, that they have been too busy laying weight on their hearts to suffocate it.

day6-the stranger

I hope if i ever have passed you
that it was a sweet encounter.

Monday, August 16, 2010


i woke today with my head fuzzy
i've been having squeezing headaches lately
im too human (what does that even mean) sometimes...
i dont know how exactly to live in the moment
because i want to live in the future.
i want to be aware before im even aware.
its frustrating sometimes
one thing is for certain
this fall i think im going to fall back into earth
and stop living in space.
For the most part, play times over,
i do feel a major change coming up.
Im enrolled full time,
i have to get a new camera (F WORD!!!)
but maybe things and ^ (that) will be better
call it an upgrade..
moms thinking about movie to NJ.
ANd here i am thinking about finding a new place,
its not even time to make that decision right now.
One step at a time,
but really where will i be a year from now?
who will still be around?
will i still be around?

yup, i worry to much

(^reblogged from tmblr)
My time is coming,
I can feel it
and chances are it'll come
in a curve ball
I wish i could get paid for adventures, and my writings and photographs...
maybe i will

day 5-the dreams

dear dreams,

for the most part, thanks for always portraying me as some type of macho-super agent. And for being immortal, the sad part is though, i always see other people (unfortunately friends) who are hurt or die in my dreams and i always feel helpless for not helping them, so can we switch things up a little bit? Can i now have foresight?

p.s. lucid dreaming is always cool, but these can get a little creepy sometimes

Sunday, August 15, 2010

day 4-the sibilings

sistah sadie,
you have grown to such a pretty woman the problem is though, i think you realize your pretty. But you do annoy me because of the fact that your stupid when it comes to boys, any guy should bow to the fact that they have you. But instead, you sometimes submit to them instead. I know your young and you still have alot of life. But sometimes i fear the life you might come across, I always wished that you would be eccentric and grow up and be cool and have people follow you. but sometimes i see you follow these stupid girls with all the makeup and over tight pants, who fall stupid in love with douche bags. But maybe things will change..
i think your a special little girl, i think your imagination will bring you far. I hope creativity will wrap around you and bind you. I was thinking about it, i wouldn't mind having teapartys with you and im sorry im not around more. I think that is what god is showing me, i love your laugh. Your a 50 yr old woman in an 8 year olds body. I love your paintings, and everytime i hear about some little kid messing with you, i wish i could kick their butt for you.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

day 3-my parents

even though i never met you it sounds like im almost what you expected. either way, every once in a while i see a dragon fly or get a warm chill and think of you. (i dont know why i think of dragon flys but whatever). Either way, i get the feeling you laugh at me sometimes, i also heard you were a player of some sort, but id like to think of you as a nice guy. And you probably had eyes that made girls blush and a smile that attracted fragile hearts. My stepdad never really took your place but i think he did a good job as well. I barely speak to him at all anymore, but some of the things he did played as a "what NOT to do, when you become a father"
i find myself strong and stubborn just like you. Sometimes i get mad at you cause i expect you to always be strong, i never give you a chance to just be human. I wish you would embrace things a little more openly sometimes, and im glad its because of you that im tactful and outgoing. But the curse of this is i cant trust easily and always feel ulterior motives. I always love you, and i love the shock of peoples faces when i tell them how young you are, just so they can say what a good mom you are for a young one.

Friday, August 13, 2010

day 2-the crush

there is a reason why your design interests mine.
why the chemicals go off in my brain when your around to make my blood pump quicker
to make my heart hiccup.
for the thin shortness of air in my lungs to squeeze.
everything is euphoric enough.
there is a reason that your scent is enough to make my head twirl
and for my vision to go fuzzy
enough to make everything blurry
but still make out the words that
are sipped from your lips...

Wednesday, August 11, 2010


(which one)
We've had an interesting run so far, its weird to know that there is someone outside of who you are who things exactly the same way. We've had alot of ups and maybe 4 downs (which i think is pretty good) anyway. It is with you that i had to learn to trust and be a little more open. That I could rely on someone and realize i can't be independent. ANd fortunately i thank you for that, that i would even have to grow up to admit that. To admit that i am just as vulnerable as any human being and be ok with that. there is a part of me that doesn't necessarily trust you, because i know things you dont think i do. I dont think you trust yourself sometimes, which knocks on the doors of others you like. Either way, i loves ya

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

i stole it


Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror