Monday, August 31, 2009

Saturday, August 29, 2009

truth and dare

sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. you never know who these people may be, but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in the most profound way"-unknown

My reflection Wraps and pulls me under Healing waters to be Bathed in Brena Guide me safely in Worlds I've never been to

Friday, August 28, 2009


Quod me nutrit me destruit

Words are flying out like
endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting thorough my open mind
Possessing and caressing me

dance with danger


"so its a physical attraction"

its much more than that, but our highways are always are lit up by cars that pass us by, distractions to which we see as blurs down the fast lane. fades of colors, colors like our photos, that look sharp to us, but are nothing more than mass saturation to others. its in ours eyes, and on the back burner, just sometimes, because of the potential for a hurricane. but what about the calm after the storn? will our piers still be standing?


one thing im bad about is keeepings in touch with people, its something i know i should be better at but haven't fully got there. theres always this feeling that im limiting myself, maybe just randomly leaving and starting again should be the answer. the problem is i've already done that, maybe it was just the wrong place. i feel like i should be having better experiences and maybe it has to start with me..

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Heavy like weights

'it's always easier to be a jerk than to be open and vurnerable'

Unfortunately that's what our society has learned

Sunday, August 23, 2009


theres no sense in trying to get back what you lost, cause maybe you lost it for a reason. Its like breaking a mirror and only picking out the pieces that you want to keep, you could still see your reflection but only pieces of it...

Thursday, August 20, 2009

waiting around

"don't wait around for an answer, you gotta put forth effort and then things will become more clear"
im always looking to sky for the answers, maybe i shouldn't always.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

im starting to feel like im missing moments, and experiences. I need more, maybe im in the wrong place at the right time? or the right place in the wrong time?
either way im guessing things could be more fun

Monday, August 17, 2009


"knowing that your at your worse, is already starting the road to making things better."

*through mysterious ways you work

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Thursday, August 13, 2009

things,flings, and strings

just when it seems we are gong the same speed, down the same street, we are headed to different destinations, but collide somewhere off the tracks.

*its starting to seep through the cracks, and flood the basement


"that would be even for you...that'd be about square"

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

"maybe because they know your someoneBig in my life"


*keep hiding behind your cloud, eventually the sun shines through


honestly, honesty tea is alright..but the truth is good.

"we must be willing to let go of the life we've planned to have the life that is waiting for us"-e.m. forster


im hooked on this show!

Monday, August 10, 2009


D.C. was prreetty good. i wish i was still there..
maybe whats worth reconsidering is the fact that the truth is always there in front of you, maybe its just a choice of whether or not you choose.

Friday, August 7, 2009

cause i bulit you a home in my heart, with rotten wood that decayed from the start.

maybe its all building up to collapse...


sum it all up

i truly believe that when you finally come to a realization or that when you receive something good, something always comes to offset your tracks.

"its the devil messing with you"

Thursday, August 6, 2009


its all about coooooordination!


theres some much going on in my head, and it seems theres no way to express it, even as i try to write it out, (really i mean type it out but..) vacation starts today and hopefully we figure out whats going on, either way, just enjoying some time off would be nice.

"its 50/50 but lately i've been feeling 80/20"

Wednesday, August 5, 2009


i've been told that my blogs are known as cryptic to some,

mysterious to others,

annoying to some,

amazing to others,

the list goes on and on...creative, interesting....but one thing remains

(and thats just how i write)


thank you for reading bee-tea dubs!

im sure ill have something pop up soon, and chances are..

youll be reading it..

(unless of course i forget...)

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

sad truth

as for right now, im people burnt out..almost all of you get on my nerves, im starting to begin to think im not this people person i thought i was, or are we all people persons until we eventually get a permanent burnout? is a loners last resort?

*im almost to the point of starting again...a new...and forget all of you