Thursday, December 31, 2009


wrapped in this wind
surrounding me
but with blistering cold

dense streets are filled with invisible demons
that hide ontop of backs.
you know its there but the numbingly cold
lets you forget

these closets are full of decaying bones of the skeletons that you
tossed unwillingly

dancing with this fire

what was meant to scorch now
seduces me into oblivion.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009


drippings from my mind
pieces spread about upon a table.
different pictures
jumbled dated memories
with sepia feelings
dated like old
which once brought
"new" news.
like quiet beach days
smiles, sand between toes
whispers from the ocean
breezes that caress my face
like the wind did then.
like the art that
was splattered
to everyone else it was "specks" of paint
to me
it was always more
like gray overcast days
that threw rains and dark clouds
like crumbled ideas on sheet of paper
to which although looked ominous
I always became entangled in there mysteries
children the hang and swing
from bars
laughing and giggling
because the world to them
was a big playground
living without a care
that must be the life
but does that mean
living passively
actively living for nothing
does that mean not caring at all then?
Memories hang from a mobile
that gaze
and hang upon this thin string
with wet sopping emotion

Friday, December 25, 2009

this time

maybe this time its more about me and them

and less about you.

*i hope this is right...

i hope this battle is one worth the victory..

the 'eve'

so i came into christmas the right way..and im going to enjoy christmas with my family which will be good...

but until then

scandalous photos on phones

nostalgic conversations

closed stores

crazy customers

and good ihop.

'i keep trying to find this line between insanity and insanity'

'....well, they say insanity is trying the same thing again but expecting different results'

'it could've been worse'

i may not understand you always, but i theres something about your crazyness i understand...


Thursday, December 24, 2009

only everytime

almost as diffused
as a droplet of water
that produces waves
that engulf lands
and for every breath exhaled
hurricanes and tornadoes form
that batters and drowns.
like electricity
that shocks its victims useless...

*your that sweet moment, the one you see in movies
when you finally reach that revelation,
when the character accepts fate for what it is
like tasting the last beautiful drop of life
before it comes to an end
it almost makes you realize
that before it ended
how precious it was.
and a quick longing shivers over your shoulder
because you know youll never have that feeling again..

only everytime.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

moving towards the light
ive always felt shadows follow me
they w3ave in like webs
spotlights are the only refuge
i bathe in comforting hands

use the rays to wash off this

Saturday, December 19, 2009


oh lotus.

whisper the secrets

the ways youve triumph to bloom

even through murky waters

bunri sono houto

just scratching the surFACE

time was never my friend
we were always on two opposes forces.
either because he was going too fast and i wanted to take my time.
or because i wanted to speed through
and he made me slow things down.


i tried to take the easy way out, but sometimes the hardest thing to do is to take the other route.
im sorry i doubted
you mean more than you think. all. of. you.


You give me a feeling that I never felt before
And I deserve it, I think I deserve it
(Drake: I deserve it, I think it deserve it..Let it go)
It's becoming something that's impossible to ignore
And I can't take it

good ass song!

(and no it doesn't apply to anyone)

Friday, December 18, 2009


theres points in which its worthless,

but the only way to stop caring

is by cutting off a few strands.

hopefully the right ones...

Thursday, December 17, 2009

dear tree

dear tree,
you've grown so strong
and as you grow older
your rings tell of mistakes and triumphs
your leaves fall with such grace
and bring color along.
your roots sprout and recieve never ending knowledge.
and when winter comes,
you face storms with courageous spirit.

but dear tree,
tell me why, when your apples fall.
they poison instead of nourish?

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

"sometimes people tend to look at the big picture, instead at looking the small detail that brought that picture together"

so this time, im pulling from puddles of thoughts.
water, it can be so forgiving
washing away the bad, and leaving the new.
when it rains, it breaks to pieces of glass
only to be renewed back at the source.



your words pound at this armor
gently built by tender thoughtful hands
but by the years those hands turned rough
and this armor once hardened by metal
has become fragile like paper
paper thrown into the fire
and this fire burns through.
this armor was second skin
but now everything is full center
and for every war and battle scar
a kind word or thought could've stopped bloodshed.
for every raven, there were 2 doves.
one watching over me, and the other telling me to follow them to another path.

(i look because sometimes i want to be everything you want, i never once realized that maybe your not the everything i needed.)

Monday, December 14, 2009

words of comfort

i can be your escape.
I can be your trap.
i can be your truth.
i can be your deciet.
i can be your pleasure.
i can you be your pain.
your joy, your never ending, your next guess, your next step.
i can be your rebirth,
your renewal.
i can be your death,
your coffin. that keeps you trapped.
i can be your reaching hand,
i can be your perilous leap.
i can be your water, reviving
i can be the one crashing waves
drowning your bed.



your an angel. and a demon
theres not much left to your footprints.
and with every memory that strikes your subconscious.
you forget the detail that got you here.
the saying is the same
'play with fire and your bound the get burned'
play with hearts and your bound to get yours ripped out.
dont let mistakes become your lullaby.
that you sing to yourself at night to patch up old wounds
wounds the never healed correctly,
so with every impulsive decision
a scab falls off
and blood soaks your bandages.
this desire your fire.
is an imminent path towards the signature of your soul.
fire has no decisions, no judgement, no mercy, no compassion.
the clouds will no longer become your pillow,
but these flames will become your friend...

Sunday, December 13, 2009


your eyes tell lies
that your mouth couldn't put into words
your mind has sights
that you hid back behind those eyelids.

cause in the end it all comes back to 1.



your silhouette shines with the stars
i watched you and cradled you
my sweet little nebula
there are pieces of you i pulled apart
so i can trace it back to the start
when my eyes met yours
and your lips curved perfectly with mine.
i ripped these pages
and sprinkled them on the ground
follow them
for they spell out a secret passageway
our hidden away treasure
where our passion can thrust up within
and we reach horizons
a supernova never recorded.

like knowing whats on the otherside of the glass but wiping away the haze, to see things more clearer

Friday, December 11, 2009

cause its worst than marvelous

in a perfect imagination
these thoughts progress to a form, a new trendy fashion
i've painted the day with a color picked from the different corners of my mind
and ive projected thoughts, positive ones.
and this grass grows to a perfect length cleanly shaven.
the scent that follows you everywhere is one that is warm and inviting.
and every scene is our playground.
and every star is cradled.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

attract -att +sub

much like the strange attractors, that, while fall along the line of chaos
when one in the same, calm like a summer breeze.

these things do not add up,
not because they don't
not because it won't
but because they do.

Monday, December 7, 2009


your speaking loudly

but your only deafening yourself


tell me something wild temptress
something i want to hear.
your hair ablaze with fire that eats away at papers
papers of poems, needs, desires, temptations.
with every step theres crunching of cities.
every tone of your voice, cracks and shakes the earth.
eyes deep, black holes
that drowns the masses within
insensitivity to life.
foresight forbade future comings to
stay stuck up in this present, but paradoxically our 'past'
with every crush that you set out against
you unwillingly make a eventually fatal blow to yourself.


Sunday, December 6, 2009


we were ghosts from the start
on different paths till one day
it all converged

you haunt my mind

we were ghosts from the start

Friday, December 4, 2009


sitting in this train
this stranger walks by

i ignore looking out this window
everything speeds by as if
we were warping to somewhere new
i guess in a sense we are

this stranger is no stranger
but someone i once shared memories with
a part of me, but more of you, stranger
pretending to hide behind a facade

your eyes roll over to me
i feel the lasers burn from your eyes
keep staring out this window

and with a touch
every 'forgotten' memory comes back
were moving forward, but everything is going back<
memories, hills, sweet dew from the morning mist, sunlight blinding me
but holding on to you, i knew without looking, you were always there
memories wrapped between sheets, and layers and insecurities and lies
and happiness, that was there hidden underneath the rock that we threw into the ocean.
oceans deep with emotions, and covering the footprints that walked along this beach.
beaches that hid and swept away the sand to our foundation,
our castles. our fortress. near meadows and lakes.
lakes that led to rivers which made small ponds and rivers that lead back to the ocean.
where emotions, and lies, and happiness delve deep.

deep into the darkness like a tattoo. that was embedded but marked over.

keep staring out this window.


we are moving foward, past this...


Thursday, December 3, 2009

Death Cab..

You're kept in an open cage so you're free to leave or stay
Sometimes you get confused
Like there's a hint that I'm trying to give you

The longer you think the less you know what to do

It's hard to see your way out
When you live in a house in a house
'Cause you don't realize
That the windows were open the whole time

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

this cold

its so unforgiving and cold
this wind

it blows without mercy
without compassion

this deceitful tundra
it once had life

and love that warmed it to its core
now it overbearing
and nevermore

Sunday, November 29, 2009


these words
from this mouth
plucked from this tongue
can be the powder
tucked in this canister
that can be thrown
into a foundation


Friday, November 27, 2009


"you basically have a side to choose"
"personally you know what I THINK marcus"

yeah, but i rather not lose anyone....

unfortuantely, im the radius on part of the circle.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009


its like playing a game of russian roulette,
and your next to pull the trigger.

"put a gun to my head, and paint the walls with my brains"

In between the >alleys<
theres darkness and now theres light

Monday, November 23, 2009

i always was told dont BURN your bridges, but even still
my bridges are sometimes still set aflame.
While setting out a fire in one, Im starting anew
Im the one burning, inside--->out
these ashes are flaking away
im still here, but theres chaos around me


its the little things that will be big things at some point,
these mines that you dug deep and forgot about.
And noone is safe, not even yourself.
the map you've been reading is upside down

Friday, November 20, 2009



"im not to say whose in the future"

whereas im always looking into the future, and expecting to see it before it comes.. i can't always be a time traveler. But sometimes my gut seems to be stuck there (the future)

Saturday, November 14, 2009


Is everything a baited hook?
And are there locks on all doors?
If you’re looking for an open book
Look no further, I am yours

Wednesday, November 11, 2009


flashing lights.

potential roommate? we'll see..


" you have to much unrequited loves...its not healthy for you"

Monday, November 9, 2009

Tuesday, November 3, 2009


let me show you the light, there aint never be a light so bright

maybe im looking all around for something, anything when really...everything im looking for is right inside of me.

i feel like im restless, like i don't know where i want to go but maybe thats gearing me up to actually DO something about it.

* as far as you trying to cover up your fire, your burning desires whatever it be, its hidden and you forgot about it really,
it burns and the smoke is now making it hard
to focus.
be the air to my flame that grows it, and not extinguishes it.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009


either way you look at it

i might as well dig my grave were im standing...

unless i

- u

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Saturday, October 24, 2009

worth searching for

"theres alot of things that you question and everytime you do, the way you perceive faith, is going to give you a unique way at how your questions are answered. And when they are answered , it will probably be scary because now that means EVERYTHING in your life will have to change based on that answer, everything will be new....and eventually youll get to a point in which you stop asking questions because you don't want any more answers...ITLL get scary but also exciting..."

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


yeah,if different standards and different times....then yeah there would be a difference

sucks that it happened on these terms

Tuesday, October 20, 2009


1) if that didn't happen the way it did, none of this would've happened. haha it was meant to be...haha jk (not really)

2)your another one that i am so grateful to have in my life, your friendship has helped me push through, and you are a genuine person that really matters to me.

3)your eyes seem to put off a different vibe than what seems to be the truth sometimes. you need to bring your gifts more to light, and don't let things or money get in your way...your a beautiful person..


5) your a good one. i just hope your not taking my advice as your life map...that would be bad

Monday, October 19, 2009


i find it keeps cycling around in my head, theres always 3 sides to a story

well i was always one for taking the mid road, the mid gasoline, the middle choice, the 'maybe'...

don't and won't

don't use your powers for evil,

for your own good.


Saturday, October 17, 2009

wake up

"Somethin’ filled up
my heart with nothin’,
someone told me not to cry."

"We’re just a million little god’s causin rain storms turnin’ every good thing to rust.

I guess we’ll just have to adjust."

Thursday, October 15, 2009


your always at the end of the road..and im not so sure about that all the time

Monday, October 12, 2009




all seeing eye

*tell me what you see because im thinkin of switching some things around, i just hope they aren't things ill miss

Monday, October 5, 2009

the silence

the silence it what kills you...

my mind must be pacing at 100mph cause words are not running out of my mouth.

""I learned long ago never to say the obvious thing, but leave the obvious thing to commonplace and inexperienced people to say." -Mark Twain


things are starting to feel out of place..


Thursday, October 1, 2009


"sometimes god makes you do things you may not want to do"


*sometimes it is hard to decipher what is meant for you to do...and what you wanna do...these boxes don't always close.

you do have a plan, i was just on the wrong frequency...

Saturday, September 26, 2009

sometimes,in some ways

i wish god didn't believe in me as much, cause those days tend to be harder. But thats what life can be about, at least sometimes. Trying to climb to the lighter path, only to be put on a darker one as a test.

Friday, September 25, 2009


yeah..i have been there i know exactly how the story ends..and maybe im not proud of that..

* and as a friendly reminder i don't always believe you get what you dream of, maybe some form of it might exist, but thats just it, that something that reminds you of the dream you have, thats what you end up settling with.

come back to the ground.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

im starting to wonder about this thing i created...

because usually in order to put something should know how to dismantle it..

"your problems are on the table, you just gotta take the next step to fixing them- if you want"

*practice what I preach..i should

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

curiosity killed the cat... lucky for you

it might have 9 lives

it might be time for something new soon...


Monday, September 21, 2009

full circles be on the same channel....sometimes whether or not your realize create inspiration for me more than you know....

"im just tired of all the interference"


Wednesday, September 16, 2009


sitting in this stupid library has taught me a few never print on the wrong printer, that i can fix the backup better than the librarian here, and to sit down and think about things in a quite place. (cause our starbucks just isn't cutting it) but anyway i have class in about a 20 mins, so lets get things poppin'. I went to cNu today and realized that its just not for me, needless to say i felt uber inferior to the admissions officer. I cant stand snobby people and well it seemed whether or not people tried to hide it, you could smell it....i've been trying to get this ball rolling with school and decided i might just go to ODU. Im hoping that if thats a place i don't need to be at though, god would let me know that Veeerrry soon. So i could save some time and well, alot of money...I was thinking i should go to VCU but i dont know if i want to now. Im thinking i need to go up there pretty soon too. Amongst all this, ive been really aware of the people that god has been putting into my life nowadays. ANd due to a current discussion i've have about friends lately, i have learned to appreciate these people more. Im guessing i have a wave of new things and transformations coming my way. (this is probably the first full posting ive done)

"i hope you have an idea...cause im running out"


Monday, September 14, 2009

whats the worst that can happen? EV ER Y TH IN G

we both playing the same game.

Sunday, September 13, 2009




to the person who made this...or at least the creator above who made this person to even put this into idea and...dammit! its amazing

e.v.i.l. is live backw3rds

i find myself between q&a because i cant tell if my questions are being answered, and what i need is the right now. of course i have the future for different needs and possibly different answers, but of course thats to different questions...
so why are you here? and why does it lead back to you?

or am i missing my stop? and maybe these warnings aren't mirages..but truth

why do i even have to question it?

*"my predictions are the only things i have..."

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Everyone is a moon,
and has a dark side
which he never shows to anybody."

when they break

please say you have a plan...cause im running out of ideas...

"when the levees broke.."

Sunday, September 6, 2009

campy campin'

i cannot tell you how much fun this weekend was, good people

good times. good fights( sorry morgs..). and meeting branches while canoeing..

and i've actually ate steak! 2x this weekend.. and to top it off with a cookout wit mah other fam!

great times!


"yeah, sound like a big problem"
it sounds like nothing but that same song.

maybe i just don't see what its in front of me,
maybe im already caught in the web, but stuck in a trance by the beautiful art of the web, sedated by the glisten of the dew stuck on each strand, awaiting to be devoured.


maybe theres nothing left to wonder, but to go further.

I dont like either...


so as i stared at the fire i couldnt help but to find my soul wanting to seek someway out... but really from what?

these fires burn slowly,
opposed to the beautiful bright violent ones.

mine burns slow,and
your nothing but the wind that either builds it up..
or blows it out

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

theres alot of switching around lately? Should i brace myself or am i expecting the worse when really it might be a good thing?

i wish i could rewind back and fast already know what happens next...

p.s. im starting to get annoyed by you