in.the.end.

i tried to convince myself other wise.

because while thinking one, the other ate me up.

your sale was sweeter than the offer.

and in the end i always knew.

i guess i've always known,

Hurt is knowing and convincing yourself other wise even though,

you knowyou know.

Takeithowyouwant.

Just know there is no next time.

My chances are no spare change.
guessyougaveyourself #extratime

to plan your next attack.

at the other side

my hands on the right, it shows on the left.

my smirk is to the left, it shows on the right.

meet the new me.

a few things im not

1. fake

2. phony

3. a moocher

4. a damn hipster.

off the top of my head

change comes with every breeze.

fall face first in the the separating ice.

come out into the other side.

thirst for warm air

receive growth from the sun.

true life.

You are the hole in my head

You are the space in my bed

You are the silence in between

What I thought

and what I said

+No light, no light

perspective

80% of the time

waste of time.

~ -

you're a mess of attention.

to:you

ils étaient déjà smushed avec une poussée constante calme sur le côté
tout ce que votre cœur est
avec votre propre femme
signe
jusqu'à
tous les
votre
parents
seul un esprit portuaire
dans la térébenthine

im the reaper Bahn
calme l'arrivée
le déchirer à la nuit

play tayme

resistance.

numb.

some would say there is a negative connotation for the word.

but i think sometimes, its just what you need to clear your head.

theres so many changes going on for me all the time,

i'm a reactor, and the sum of it all is overwhelming.

eventually, i have to leave.

deserve.

to speak artistically, i'm in a subway station, like something out of a movie, and everyone around me is searching for their train, and i'm there in the middle of it all

you may not understand...but their is more for you in life...more than one state in a country than offer...explore...thats all i'm about...i've been to 4 countries countless states, and experienced alot, your mind needs it..

yeah, is that why you think the military is good for me?

you're searching for more...they see the train as a means of transportation, you see it as a means of transformation, do you understand?

haha maybe this is why i was up

haha..ridic

lEvElS

something for yous.

i got real tired of your empty promises.

you'll get tired of my empty threats.

i loaded up my thoughts and words in a barrel.

Where the cold metal surrounds them and forms the bullet.

regret.

its amazing how

all those times i fought for you,

you trashed those wars.

because you were on the opposing team,

the team against you.

thisisnotmywar.

thisisnotmywar.

thisisnotmywar.

thiswasyourwar.

andyouaskedforthecoupe'degrace.

thisisnotmywar.

thiswasyourwarallalong.

coupe de grace

~billie holiday~

and when the sun shines down, it shines on both of us
and when the storm falls down, it falls too high to touch
and you say that you can't get away
but the night is just enough for both of us

every now and then

i get that feeling to go against everything i thought was right,

i have a feeling i know where that path leads,

broken hearts,

feelings,

friends,

and would eventually lead to

my combustion.

and i would be fine with that.

a.g.

Seeing a change, how god transforms people

is more a blessing than you know,

you have inspired me on alot of levels.

and you cook great.

you deserve a space on my blog.

thats real.

mly.

sav.VAN.UH

"its funny how you find yourself in different frames, in different places, you give your self hope, it lets you know theres always room for change, and chances are...theres always a room for for you to change in"

legit.

on my search....

Sentence.

I want to care but then i don't.

I want to forget but theres no precursor to start

a frantic war.

All there is the guessing and the unknown.

I've grown attracted to mystery, which is what got me here,

but once i figured out, i'm satiated and move on.

this would feel better,

you would feel better,

i would feel better.